The Hunt

19 May 2010 1 Comment

by chyldeofthenorns in submission

“She looks up to the mirrored glass
She sees a horse and rider pass
She says, “This man’s gonna be my death
‘Cause he’s all I ever wanted in my life”

~ Emilie Autumn, Shallott

I am so fed up of male subs that i cannot describe it. Self absorbed idiots are all they seem to be. This search for a male sub has taken so much out of Mistress i can not begin. All the disappointment, the hopes dashed, the pain, the upset, the wasted time and the anger.. to mention only the tip of everything. I support Mistress wholeheartedly with this search but when yet another idiot upsets Mistress, or is scared, or is to busy to be bothered, depressed  etc etc i get very frustrated.

I won’t pretend i have not had my own fears or apprehensions, because i have but i haven’t let them get to me so much that they have crippled me and stopped me experiencing what i want to be part of. I worry about Mistress when all our spare time is taken up by one of these males who inevitably get scared or whatever.. and the disappointment starts again. Its a vicious cycle and i am worried about how it affects Mistress.

All that rejection must start taking its toll. Especially because Mistress is scared too, nervous too. This is a new thing for Her and yet She is not supposed to show that. Of course not, She is the Dominant. Pfft i say to that. I can see its taking its toll, and Mistress has said it is. I want very much for Mistress to succeed and find the right person but i am worried, not in finding someone, but about the hunt for that someone.

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