I hate it when i am bad

I was bad tonight, for the first time since i got back, and got reprimanded in front of Mystress Swan’s pet robert. I was very embaressed and ashamed. i hadn’t meant to do anything wrong either. It will teach me to word things better i think. And a good lesson to learn. I think the worst part was feeling that shame again after wanting so desperately to be good. It hurt and made me want to hide, which i didnt because that is what i would have done when i was ill. I am determined to face things now. It is good getting to spend time with Mystress Swan and she has quickly become someone i trust. . I owe her a lot, and Mistress for allowing me to spend time with Her.

Because the trouble was caused while i was on SL, i was a little more panicked than i would have been because i remember last time there was trouble on SL.. I don’t want to end up in another situation like that. I did have a brief thought tonight, in the presence of both Mistress and Mystress Swan, that I never, ever want to be stuck in the middle of them both if there ws an argument.. They are both such strong women.

~ by chyldeofthenorns on October 31, 2008.